Friday, 27 March 2015

Dear Baby - 26 Weeks

Dear Baby,

It's been a crazy 4 weeks since my last letter to you. So much has happened that I don't know where to start. We've had a couple more scans and you're growing amazingly well - and, even better, at the cardiology scan this week no further complications were detected which is just the best news we could have hoped for!

Your movements are getting more and more pronounced, and a couple of weeks ago they even became visible. The first time I saw my whole tummy move because of you, I was sitting in a team brief at work - it was dull, but you certainly distracted me and gave me something far more interesting to focus on! I can spend ages gazing at my tummy now, watching your kicks and rolls.

Daddy and I have been making some progress at home, preparing for your arrival. We've been spending most of our weekends trying to declutter, and rearrange the storage of, well, everything really to make better use of space and make our home more child friendly. It's turning out to be a bigger job than we expected, but we'll get there!

In exciting news, we've pretty much chosen what your name is going to be! We just need to decide whether or not to give you any middle names, we can't quite make up our minds on that yet.

Two weeks ago, Daddy and I had our 4th wedding anniversary. We'd had some devastating news the day before, so neither of us felt overly celebratory and we kept things very low key and just went out for a meal in the evening. It's strange - but good strange - to think that by the time our next wedding anniversary comes around, you'll be here and you'll be around 8 months old. I wonder how we'll celebrate our anniversaries in future?

More exciting news is that I've sorted my maternity leave - and I have only 8 weeks left in work! How fast is time passing, little one?! While it has been nice being well enough to return to work, to see and speak to other adults, and to have something to do other than watch daytime TV and feel ill, I can't deny that I am looking forward to taking a year out and being your mummy. Getting to work is starting to feel like a chore - that 20 minute walk to and from the railway station is more tiring and bump-achy every single day, and it will be nice not having to do that any more. Daddy also submitted his forms today for paternity leave, so the formalities are pretty much done!

Well Baby, it's been another long and tiring week and Mummy is shattered. Time for some sleep!

Goodnight, little one


Mummy xx

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Wednesday, 25 March 2015

Cancer Sucks

I know, I vanished again. The truth is, we've had a rotten few weeks and I've been an emotional mess. I'd like to blame it on the hormones, but that wouldn't be honest.

Three weeks ago, we found out that someone very dear to us - particularly to Boy - had made the difficult decision to stop his cancer treatment. The cancer had spread so rapidly in the month prior that there wasn't much more could be done.

A couple of days after that, this lovely man was given just 2 weeks to live. Sadly, he passed away less than 2 days later. He was peaceful, at home with his family, but that doesn't make the news any less sad or his loss any less painful.

In only 5 months from diagnosis, cancer took a happy, healthy, newly retired 61 year old and made him fade away and lose his battle. We're so glad that we managed to see him one final time just 36 hours before he passed, and we will forever treasure the special memories we hold of him. He may not have been a blood relative, but he was very much family and we will always think of him in those terms.

RIP Mr Jones, we miss you terribly x