Friday, 6 February 2015

Dear Baby - 19 weeks

Dear Baby,

It's the middle of the night, and I can't sleep. It hasn't been the greatest of days. My intention was to write to you every other week, but there is so much to say now that I can't wait until next week.

Yesterday, we had the anomaly scan. It's a day I've waited for with baited breath; I've been too scared and worried about the possibility of something being wrong to dare to believe that you will actually become our world in the not too distant future. I was clinging on to the hope that everything would be OK and we could heave a sigh of relief and get Project Baby started.

So was it mother's instinct? I don't know. I do know that the current unknown situation we're facing with you is potentially terrifying. My darling baby, there's something wrong with your heart. We don't know any specifics yet, we have to go back to the hospital next week and see the consultant for her specialist opinion.

I'm so scared for you. Please, please be alright. Know that we love you so much and we'll fight with everything we've got for you. Right now you're all that matters to both of us, we've waited so long for you and we are desperate to take you home and watch you grow.

All my love,

Mum xx

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8 comments:

  1. Sending you love and hugs and strength and prayers xxxx

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  2. Awww, Jenni. I'm thinking of you & yours. Please keep me posted. I'm sending hugs your way!

    Mandie ~ http://badbrewpack.blogspot.com/

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  3. Hugs and prayers! I hope eveything is all right!

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  4. Awww, hugs! I hope everything is ok, thinking of you and baby.

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  5. Oh my goodness Jenni. So much love and best wishes for all three of you. As you know, I keep you in my thoughts x

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  6. Oh Jenni, sending you love and hugs from afar. I totally understand what a difficult time this must be... we went through a similar situation when they saw some cysts in Ryder's brain during an ultrasound. We had to go through a whole genetic testing thing and it was incredibly stressful. Try to stay calm and positive for that sweet little angel! xo

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  7. OH Jen, am so sorry to read this. Keeping everything crossed and sending lots and lots of vibes for next week x

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  8. Many hugs to you, dear Jenni! I so wish for everything to be alright with your precious little baby. If it's any consolation to you, I know two families who had babies with heart defects (wholes in the membrane separating the two main heart chambers), and both healed by themselves within the first 12 months of their lives. We're keeping you in our thoughts!!

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