Tuesday, 7 January 2014

Fear and Infertility Strike Again

You know the old expression "worried sick"? I am the living embodiment of that today. My stomach is in knots, I'm a bag of nerves, and I think if anyone just looked at me the wrong way I'd probably burst into tears.

Today is a day that Boy and I have waited so long for. Yesterday, I was fine - relaxed, calm, and kind of looking forward to it. Today, I feel sick to my stomach and I can't focus on anything else at all.

Today, we have our first appointment at the IVF clinic. I hope with everything I have that by the end of today, we have some kind of a plan and a timeline instead of the endless "what ifs" and "maybes". But I can't shake the nerves that maybe we won't, maybe some other spanner will get thrown in the works - we've had so many already and we're kind of used to it, so it wouldn't surprise me. I'll be honest with you; I'm terrified.


**This post originally appeared on my old blog and has been imported to Living for the Victories**

9 comments:

  1. Today is the first day of the rest of your life! Everything is going to be okay!! I can't wait for this journey! Love ya!

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  2. crossing my fingers and saying a prayer it all works out for you and you can stay calm and anxiety free!

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  3. You will feel so much better once you get questions answered and a plan put in place... don't you worry! :)

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  4. Fingers crossed & lots of prayers sent your way that it all works out in your favor!!

    Jamie @
    The Growing Up Diaries

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  5. Praying! Praying! Praying so hard for you guys!!!!

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  6. Hope everything went well! Fingers crossed!

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  7. I hope that everything at the appointment went great...!

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  8. So obviously it didn't go as we all hoped for you. I'm so, so sorry, Jenni! Let me know if you want to talk!

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  9. Good luck! Ive been there and it's not an easy road. Prayer has always helped me and the constant reminder that even though we may not like it, Gods timing is never early and never late, it's always perfect!

    craftingafairytale.blogspot.com

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